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30 jan,

meet up with Rachel outside lift.
bought bb tea then slack at the void deck again.
i showed her the photos.
and she commented some sort of stuffs.
at night, was going through the photos.
but i just kept thinking of
what will happen to them today.
why should i care ?
so miserable ehs.
i wish i could go to suntec city
for the 'little nyonya' events.
least i would be happy as not to think of them.

why can't i be like her?
why can't i have her's character?
why can she have everything perfect for her,
while i'm the one suffering quietly?
why, why, why?
why she can be loved by everyone?
i'm really really jealous of her everything.
maybe she's just perfect for him.
everything about her is P E R F E C T.
while i'm just a typical silly person.
useless student that gain no one's care.
i really wish that he can play and talk to me
like the way he did to HER.
goshhhhh,
i'm really don't know what to say about her.
i wish she don't exist in this class.
that's my true feelings.
i don't care what you people will say about me.
i don't care about everything now.
very tired, really tired.
i finally let out how i feels.

i'm really scared one day he will just ignore me.
it scares me off. my heart pumps very very fast.
oh a dream makes me wanna cry.
i just couldn't drop a single tear.
it was like a real life, a nightmare.
is that a hint to me? in that dream,
he dislikes me, so in real life,
i guess it was also same bah.
if i continue to be like this,
my studies will be SURE affected.
i shouldn't care about all this.
okay i must beat her,

Labels: memories, so much memories. but it sucks.

30 jan,

meet up with Rachel outside lift.
bought bb tea then slack at the void deck again.
i showed her the photos.
and she commented some sort of stuffs.
at night, was going through the photos.
but i just kept thinking of
what will happen to them today.
why should i care ?
so miserable ehs.
i wish i could go to suntec city
for the 'little nyonya' events.
least i would be happy as not to think of them.

why can't i be like her?
why can't i have her's character?
why can she have everything perfect for her,
while i'm the one suffering quietly?
why, why, why?
why she can be loved by everyone?
i'm really really jealous of her everything.
maybe she's just perfect for him.
everything about her is P E R F E C T.
while i'm just a typical silly person.
useless student that gain no one's care.
i really wish that he can play and talk to me
like the way he did to HER.
goshhhhh,
i'm really don't know what to say about her.
i wish she don't exist in this class.
that's my true feelings.
i don't care what you people will say about me.
i don't care about everything now.
very tired, really tired.
i finally let out how i feels.

i'm really scared one day he will just ignore me.
it scares me off. my heart pumps very very fast.
oh a dream makes me wanna cry.
i just couldn't drop a single tear.
it was like a real life, a nightmare.
is that a hint to me? in that dream,
he dislikes me, so in real life,
i guess it was also same bah.
if i continue to be like this,
my studies will be SURE affected.
i shouldn't care about all this.
okay i must beat her,

Labels: memories, so much memories. but it sucks.